I laid in bed last night..and thought...Who am I? I couldn't go to sleep on this New Years Day. Restless. Thoughts moved in. I believe God put this question on my heart as I prepare for a new year.
And my answer is....
I am a child of the one true God, a sinner redeemed and saved by grace. Worshipper, follower, servant, disciple,
I am a wife to a wonderful, compassionate, loving, handsome hunky husband. At one time I don't think he was very compassionate. At one time, we didn't know how to love...God has worked in us both. So we have become communicators and forgivers. We are team mates, companions, best friends. He is my life partner. God has a purpose for us both! How exciting!!
I am a mother to two very lively, spunky, personable, fun kids. And they know God. And I want them to know Him deeply. So I am a shepherd, teacher, mentor, disciplinary.
I am a daughter, a sister, a friend, employee, niece, aunt, cousin.
I am a sinner. Who has stumbled. Who has fallen. But God has lifted me up. Forgiven. And washes me white as snow. Behold all things are new. And in the midst of the hard, the turmoil, the dark and gray, God reveals himself clearly. He says he will never leave or forsake us. And he proves himself time and again. His promises never falter. He stands true. So its not about who I am. Its about Who God is...thru me. And that's my new years determination for 2014. I told my awesome husband, its not really a resolution as we discussed the new year, but rather a declaration for our family. I want this year to be more intentional and more on purpose for God. Its not about me and my wants. Its about God. And then God confirmed it two of my devotions...back to back...Here are the verses!
Deuteronomy 11:18-19
18-21 Place these words on
your hearts. Get them deep inside you. Tie them on your hands and foreheads as
a reminder. Teach them to your children. Talk about them wherever you are,
sitting at home or walking in the street; talk about them from the time you get
up in the morning until you fall into bed at night. Inscribe them on the
doorposts and gates of your cities so that you’ll live a long time, and your
children with you, on the soil that God promised to
give your ancestors for as long as there is a sky over the Earth. (The
Message)
Romans 12:1-2
12 1-2 So here’s what I want you to do, God
helping you: Take your everyday, ordinary life—your sleeping, eating,
going-to-work, and walking-around life—and place it before God as an offering.
Embracing what God does for you is the best thing you can do for him. Don’t
become so well-adjusted to your culture that you fit into it without even
thinking. Instead, fix your attention on God. You’ll be changed from the inside
out. Readily recognize what he wants from you, and quickly respond to it. Unlike
the culture around you, always dragging you down to its level of immaturity,
God brings the best out of you, develops well-formed maturity in you. (The
Message)
I won't waste another year. I have an important job to do. If you are a mother or father, friend, husband, wife, etc...So do you!
Happy New Year
Jenn
